No pain

No gain

God, do you think I still need more pain?

請妳好好的活下去

不要再哭了, 好嗎?

一年了,

2009年1月4日

說再見的那一天

那一刻的離別

還瀝瀝在目

這一年

過得真的很不容易

I did a lot of things that I shouldn’t have done

I fell in love with someone whom I shouldn’t fall in love with

I waited for a so-called chance that I shouldn’t have waited for

I wasted time that I shouldn’t have wasted

I thought about things that I shouldn’t think about

I went to places that I shouldn’t have gone to

I ate things that I shouldn’t have eaten

I went back to a home that I shouldn’t go back to

I don’t know what I want

I only know what I don’t want

I don’t want us come and go and don’t know why

I don’t want to be dishonest, not open, or hiding in dark places

I don’t want to have secrets

I also don’t want to know how deep was our love

I don’t really want to know things that I shouldn’t know about

We shouldn’t fall in love

We shouldn’t hurt each other

It shouldn’t have happened

It shouldn’t have started

It shouldn’t end

I know I shouldn’t think of him again

But I really want to know

Will he be unhappy because of me?

When I’m by myself, I’d think

What do I want to be?

There’s something that’s always puzzled me

That is, am I happier with him?

Or am I happier by myself?

That’s seems to be a problem that I can’t solve by myself

Lately I’m always by myself

All alone by myself

And remember when there were two of us